I forgotten how it feels to hold a baby in my arm, afraid I might squeeze them too hard. I get nervous when someone asked me to look after their baby even for a second. As though I’ve not had a baby on my own.
Its been too long now, I feel that I have to start all over again if one day with God’s Will (Insyaallah) will give me another chance to experience giving birth to the most beautiful living being.
Looking back to the years with my precious one, I am blessed to have a beautiful boy but deep in my heart I say, I want another one. I feel its too late now, age is a factor, not getting any younger, afraid of complications even. It saddens me whenever people come up to me and asked “Just one? Why not have another one?” I would just shrugged them off saying “Belum ada rezeki.”
It come to a point that I do not even want to think about it anymore. Live life to the fullest with my precious one, giving him the most attention, love him with all my heart. Well, that is just me saying I give up but still the reality is I want another one.
So bring me an Angel.
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Tak mo give up sis. Try lagi. Insya allah. Amin.
Sis! dah lama tak dengar berita, gi your blog site senyap je…tup tup tup ha..dah 2-3 pos dah kluar or is it me yang dah lama sangat tak “bernyawa” kat sini
Anyways, thanks for the advise, yup not giving up…just counting the days when I will be having another. Terserah pada Ilahi